The outcast

I am constantly running around
I am constantly feeling self doubt
What I'm feeling doesn't come from the heart
It comes from those around

When I try and make a change
I am judged on all the new things
No matter what I can never win
My heart is broken and will never mend

I can't feel the love
All I feel is regret
All the pain in others
From all the mistakes that I have with taken in

I try to stand out
I just stand within
I try to be different
But all I do is fade in

When the doors are open I can see
But quickly there is the vanishing light
I am living in darkness
I'm living within

I show others who they want to see
I am two sided
I am different for every group of friends
I am fake and I try to come from within

I have some great friends
Most the time I try to blend in
All my friends are different
But all I can do is cast to the side

When the darkness has lightened
I come to realize
That no matter what there is always going to be a group of people that can't stand within
They have to stand on the outside to look in