Survivors Guilt

Survivors Guilt, a stupid name for someone who feels guilty or depressed for living through a horrible accident. That's what so many doctors and therapists told me I was feeling. They try to tell me I lived for a reason, that it was a gift from whatever god they believe in. I call bullshit, I wasn't saved by an angel or a god that I don't even believe in. My best friend saved my life. And everyone just brushed him off like he doesn't exist. I had to watch my only friend be chucked into the ground with 6 feet of dirt tossed on him. So what gives people the nerve to say I'll get better, that all this happens for a reason we can't begin to fathom. I'm so sick of this, of everyone, of my life, of my family...I just want quiet.

[Edited July 22, 2024]