The cutter

Ok so I have a lot of friends that cut , and sadly I'm the reason some of them cut because they see my cuts and they think it's there fault . I feel really bad for putting that on them because they do think it's there fault but it's not . I get sent to the office a lot or the counselor . Because other people see what I've done yes I do make up lies to hide what I've done to myself. Most of the reason I do cut is because I've been though a hell of a lot of things in my past . I did drugs and wish I never would have because I couldn't stop . Most people are all you past wasn't that bad well it was , my dad had raped me when my mom was high I know what a great mother right but . He had raped me more than once and I never really had my mom or dad there for me . My mother had left me at the house all alone and my uncle came and found me and took me home with him . Now out of all this my boyfriend is my everything he's helped me though things that I couldn't do alone . He makes me so happy.