𝐋𝐄𝐓 πŒπ„ 𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐏 π˜πŽπ” - 𝖩.𝖦 𝖷 𝖱𝖀𝖠𝖣𝖀𝖱 -
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  • Parts 10
  • Time 54m
Complete, First published Sep 27, 2023
Mature
|| MATURE THEMES ||

"And you say "Did you even notice, that I, began, to bleed?" And it all goes out of focus, and I hear you start to scream. Help me. Help me. Why won't you help me?"
                                    - flatsound 

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"Well I was at a friend's, and that's the only answer your going to get, so quit asking!" I snap, and he just sits there in disbelief. I not only hated when people asked questions they already know the answer to, because it seems like they're trying to be smug about it, or have some egotistical strong belief that they know everything. 

"Help me, help you. I don't fully understand where you're coming from, but I'd like to get your perspective on things. We're going to be around each other for awhile so just open up a bit. I know your irritated because you don't want help, but nothings wrong with at least trying to explain what's happening." I was a bit taken back with his response, it was like my heart yearned to pour out all my secrets, and the deepest darkest thoughts that I keep hidden was threatening to spill out from my mouth. 

"We've known each other for what? Three days? And you think we have some unbreakable bond?" My body screamed to stop, but it was like first instinct. To push the people who love me, away, and people who want to get to know me better, away. Though I don't exactly enjoy this part of myself, but I know in my heart, that if I get involved with him, it'd only break my heart. 

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STARTED :  September 26, 2023

FINISHED : October 1, 2023

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