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Go check out sea.ya.later on tiktok and watch her Hell's Belles series before you read this. None of this will make sense if you don't. I don't own any of the original characters. Jaysea is a genius and deserves all the credit.

I'm being 100% serious when I say this book is going to be a mass collection of things that can and quite possibly will trigger some people. 

Assume that any and ALL of the trigger warnings from the original series are to be included here. then add on some more because I've been traumatized so I'm going to put my OC through trauma worse than mine. 

Trust me when I say this poor kid is going to be worse off than anyone else we've seen in this series (as far as we know)All Rights Reserved

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His innocent obsession by Roraprinz

You're right, Abby. You did see me. I've been showing up there a lot. Just to catch a glimpse of you. And until yesterday I've had no luck." I brush my hands along the clothes hanging as I walk closer to her. "So I sat there for an hour just to watch you. It was the best hour of therapy I've ever had." I take the nightgown from her hand, debating on whether I should put it on her or throw it to the ground. "Jackson" She whispers my name like a prayer. I close my eyes and rest my head against hers. "Say it again, Please." "Jackson" Her voice still breathy. Letting the garment drop to the floor i hold her hips. "You're mine Abigail. Do you understand? I'll never be able to let you go." "Then don't Jax." Abby's future brother in law assigns his cousin, and head of security Jackson; to be her personal bodyguard. She wants him to be more than that. Her sister Celeste wants her to find the love of her life-as long as it isn't Jackson. And all Jackson wants is Abbigail. He knows his criminal past and time in jail doesn't make him good enough for her but he can't keep his mind off of her. Being around her 24/7 doesn't help. Their relationship blossoms, but someone has been watching them, and is hell bent on ending their little romance. Even if it means kidnapping Abby. Read to find out what happens. **this story is rated mature. Mature scenes, language and themed. If you aren't into explicit details of an intimate scene then scroll to the next story. Don't report, or complain about a sex scene when you've been warned. Please feel free to leave comments or questions. I always answer. Updates should be frequent. And please don't forget to hit the star and like it. And please follow for updates! Happy reading!***

Exposed by flameme

-Kickthepj x reader- First off, you're a girl. You're 25 years old. You have a lot of secrets. First secret, you're ArrowTheGeek. A successful YouTuber, specifically vlogger, who keeps her identity a secret. Second secret, you have social anxiety. Third secret, you like Pj Liguori. When you finally move to England, you whole life changes. You meet new people and get to live the dream. But is this really what you wanted? *Trigger warning. Panic attacks. Anxiety.* Also, logic doesn't exist

Unloved (Marauders Era) by MeAMarauder

*This book was written years ago when I was young and inexperienced. It will be really cringey at times so read at your own risk* I DO NOT support JK Rowling or any of her heinous views. Emma Loren comes from a bad home. She has been Unloved for most of her life. Until she got to come to Hogwarts. She went from being unloved to being loved.... For now. (DISCLAIMER: ALL RIGHTS GO TO JK ROWLING -EXCLUDING CHARACTERS I CREATE.) TRIGGER WARNING: Self Harm, Suicide, Depression, Child Abuse I am not romanticizing any of the triggers listed above or any other mental issues. *Coarse language; hardly used*

kevin hernandez x reader by Rosewater2008

TW mention of abuse ed and sh mentioned inappropriate actions and language a little smut spooky moments Y/n is 22 years old and this story takes place in Florida. Y/n comes from a broken home where her dad was an alcoholic who abused her and her mother. This caused her mother to barely be around when when she was a kid. She grew to hate her family and herself which caused her to develop an eating disorder, the second she graduated high-school she got as far away from her home town as possible. She moved to Florida living in a small apartment and had a shitty job which barely paid enough to pay the bills let alone survive, she was in search of a full time/better paying job, until she came across an ad for a full time editor for some youtube channel called the boys, she thought it was to good to be true but decided to check it out anyways. This would soon became the best decision of her life.

𝑵𝒚𝒎𝒑𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒂 (BWWM) 18+ by DarkRosePetalss

(18+) 𝙸𝚗 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚌𝚑 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚎𝚡𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚜 𝚜𝚘 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚜 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕 𝚑𝚎𝚛. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 (MATURE CONTENT AHEAD!!!) August (Mercy) Caddel has never had what people call a sense of normalcy in her life. She's been ridiculed by many around her including her own father. To be a woman with abnormal sexual desires was a struggle in itself. Add drug addiction with a hint of insecurities, a pinch of social anxiety and self hatred, a splash of daddy issues and you get a woman who's desperate for love. She's desperate to feel something other than pain. Elijah Hart has been let down far to many times by people he loved but didn't deserve his love. He learned to love the best he knew how and that meant possessing someone so fiercely that it could become suffocating You expect a man who's never been loved correctly to not know a damn thing about it. Elijah knew about it and he knew how he wanted to be loved. Only issue was with his love came alcoholism, jealousy, lies and cigarettes for days. He was charming, sexy as hell and had this panty dropping dimpled smile that brought woman to their knees... including August Caddel She became his new high in a matter of days. She saw him as the guy who was to good to be true. How long before someone cracks under the pressure of love before their addictions decide to split them apart indefinitely? Chapters with ✨ have been edited!! (Or half assed edited) Started: December 7th 2022 Finished: July 28th 2023 Started editing: August 2nd 2023 Finished editing:

Twisted Deception by StarrySky_23

[Book #1 of Twisted Deception] "You people don't know a damn thing about us, don't even speak." **** Everyone knows that high school is always something to dread. GPA, friends, enemies, prom, graduation, everything that you think would make high school good and bad for the future. Now scratch off friends, GPA, prom, and graduation. Why would you scratch them off? Because everything else will be the only thing that's important when you get to this high school. Saint Johnathan Pier is the one high school in the city where everything happens and normally, stuff you wish you didn't see. Everyone warned people about the dangers of the students going there but did they ever mention the people already broken by it? They were dubbed "the rainbow colors of society" just because they were different from other students in this school. But there's a slight differential between them: four of these students are popular while the other four are normal. While the four populars are seen as "superior, hot, and intimidating", the four normals are seen as "weirdos, weaklings, and irreverent bystanders". Being different from the other kids has always been a struggle for all of them since grade school, but they try to keep that out of mind. But with their dark history following them at every corner, making new friends can't be on their list. Matter of fact, it isn't an option. Especially when their attitudes are what drive people away rather than in. Not like they're complaining though. When these eight students get paired up for an end of the year assignment, they encounter a lot of drama that will test their relationships to the max. What will happen to them? Can they grow comfortable with each other? Can these troubled teens even be friends in the first place? Come along on the journey as these eight try to survive their last year of high school. ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️: This contains strong language, mentions of rape, bullying, etc.

Heart of Stone by Fanwarrior480

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Our perfect rainstorms by alanthehadley

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"Its been one year and eight months since, and now all of a sudden you bring her up, why now? Out of all days?" I ask Jake sincerely. "I can see the act your putting up in front of everyone. The recklessness and all. You can get away with all of that with everyone else, but you can't fool me Bil," Jake tells me concerningly. "Why does it matter? I moved on, I have Drew. I'm not stuck on her anymore. Clearly - I've proven that by now," I say to Jake. "Do you mean that sincerely?" Jake asks me. I huff before looking back at Jake. "Yes. I do," I say to him truthfully. "Alright well. Finneas decided that it was best that I'd break the news to you," Jake says before sitting up in his seat. I look at him with my eyebrows furrowed, and suddenly a deep trench of anxiety forms in the pit of my stomach. "What is it?" I ask him. He hesitates before speaking. "Lilith is coming back to LA to work on the stage crew," Jake says. My eyes slightly widen. Fuck. ~~~ A year has gone by and now Lilith is back. Although a reunion is coming up, a year can change a person drastically, and as they say, change is inevitable. Will Lilith be able to reconnect with Billie? Or is it seemingly hopeless? Will Lilith finally remember Billie? Or did change form Lilith into a completely different person? ~~~ (This is the Second Book to the first book called 'Sweet Belladonna'. I highly recommend you go back to read the first one before continuing on reading this one, or else you'll be majorly confused.) ~~~ AU (Alternate Universe); Though some characters are real, this is fiction. Keep that in mind. Will contain explicit language, depression, anxiety episodes, violence, smoking, drinking, trauma, drugs, and real-life events that occur. +18 Votes and Comments help me a ton, so please feel free to do so.

Logan by braindeadwriter06

*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

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His innocent obsession

You're right, Abby. You did see me. I've been showing up there a lot. Just to catch a glimpse of you. And until yesterday I've had no luck." I brush my hands along the clothes hanging as I walk closer to her. "So I sat there for an hour just to watch you. It was the best hour of therapy I've ever had." I take the nightgown from her hand, debating on whether I should put it on her or throw it to the ground. "Jackson" She whispers my name like a prayer. I close my eyes and rest my head against hers. "Say it again, Please." "Jackson" Her voice still breathy. Letting the garment drop to the floor i hold her hips. "You're mine Abigail. Do you understand? I'll never be able to let you go." "Then don't Jax." Abby's future brother in law assigns his cousin, and head of security Jackson; to be her personal bodyguard. She wants him to be more than that. Her sister Celeste wants her to find the love of her life-as long as it isn't Jackson. And all Jackson wants is Abbigail. He knows his criminal past and time in jail doesn't make him good enough for her but he can't keep his mind off of her. Being around her 24/7 doesn't help. Their relationship blossoms, but someone has been watching them, and is hell bent on ending their little romance. Even if it means kidnapping Abby. Read to find out what happens. this story is rated mature. Mature scenes, language and themed. If you aren't into explicit details of an intimate scene then scroll to the next story. Don't report, or complain about a sex scene when you've been warned. Please feel free to leave comments or questions. I always answer. Updates should be frequent. And please don't forget to hit the star and like it. And please follow for updates! Happy reading!*