Adios Amor

Learning to let him go.....
I love him enough, to let him go..for his happiness, for his love...even though writing this makes my heart wrench in pain, with a heaviness in my chest, shallow short breath and wet eyes...
we will see, who will win this time? him or me? heart or mind?
but one thing is for sure, I will always wish and pray for your happiness, peace and health..
you have unknowingly pushed me to become a better version of myself....but now you are pulling me back, it's getting difficult to live in reality, when dreams are so beautiful, especially when I know we are in the same city...
I know there cannot be any testament to love, but I never allowed myself, to fall for anyone, hence prevented a lot of mistakes... so I guess I owe you another thanks....well someday I would like to tell you, if not in person, then at least in writing, what impact you had in my life and that without any expectation, just a little hope, I have loved you for 11 years now.....I never gave up.... I guess I won't....just want you to know, you have truly made my life beautiful... Thank u