I have always pushed everything and everyone away from me, because I believed that no one would care who the person behind the facade is. But not to deceive you, he was not interested in the person either. But because of the pain he gave me, I started again with something I thought I had lost and that was writing. It really has been years since I wrote about my feelings and I'm sure I'm a little rusty, but this is my comeback and I will strive to remain steadfast and post daily. ------------------------------------------------------------ We've all lost our first love at one time or another, and we all know how the pain spreads through you. These feelings are not as present as 2-3 months ago, but I think despite the fact that we parted on bad terms, the feelings of the woman who was head over heels in love with him did not change. I want to draw a line and therefore write down one last time for you and him that everything was not just a lie but reality.