a sweet breeze

they say it doesnt hurt long,that its just a phase."it will get better,i promise"they say.well this time,its not going to get any better.the moment it gets better,is the moment i will end it all,the pain, the suffering,hate,and disgust. Everything will finaly once again be peaceful. Just like it was as a child right before life hits and knocks you off your feet.The feeling of finaly being free from all the negative,cruel things in this fucked up world.Everyday people say "Its not worth it" or "This wont help anything." but as soon as they actually do it everyone is hurt for about a day then everyrhing goes back to normal,as if you never even existed.The day i finnaly get over thinking about others and think about myself for once is the day i finnaly end it all.and there will be peace, and relieif. A sweet calm feeling in the breeze.The feeling of happienes.