Why me?

Every day I wake up and I say to myself why do I go to school.with laughter and whispers all around and for five years I had to hide the fact that I have a issue forget issue I call I call it a gift.ADHD some people don't think it as an issue but I do.My name is Jenay you might not understand but you also may have not been called a horse for two years and if you were then you can relate.And my friends or should I say frienmes first a friend then they are just another person messing with me I don't call it bullying because I do stand up but it is hard when everyday I'm called to the principles office because I stood up for my self like all the commercials and tv shows say to do but they never reall said how. But some days I wonder why me.people think I don't feel the pain but I do.I just don't show it in front of you because I know that you seeing me sad is what makes you happy.Even tho I had Appel shoved in my face and I'm not the popularlist girl in school and I got called jnayy like a hores I'm pretty happy so every thing is getting better.