I want you to Rock me ! ------On Hold at the Moment

I had always felt like I had been cursed as a Child and right now, at this very point in my life, I feel like I have been right all along.

There are people who are pure. Radiating sunshine and warmth, worming their way into your soul no matter how hard you try to keep them at bay. My friend Kira is such a person.
Which is why I'll never understand how she can tolerate someone like me. Where she is kind and warm, I'm mean and cold. Instead of her sunny smile a permanent scowl graces my face wherever I go. Instead of a big and welcoming heart an Ice rock has taken residence in my chest.

At this very moment though, I felt like cursing her aswell for guilting me into this. Because this very day was turning out to be the worst thing that ever happend to me.

Because no matter how hard I try to, I'll never be able to lead a normal life. I'll never get the chance to be as simple minded as all these girls that are surrounding me right now. I'll always be a freak.