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WhyDoIStillExisst
Complete, First published Oct 09, 2023
Mature
alcoholabuseangstdepressionimpliedcharacterdeathminorchaeacterdeathnotsexuallyselfharmshaneshanexalcoholstardewvalleysuicide
The only reason I'm alive is because I'm too much of a coward to slit my throat and finally put an end to it all.

Coward.

All I do is drown in self pity all day. Down a few bottles too many and play with the thought of drinking something stronger. And to drink just a bit too much...

OR
Shane is depressed and an alcoholic. Do you really need to know more?
Here is one of the many times Shane has been on the floor and thought for a bit too long

(Crossposted on my AO3 account. Check that out, I post on there more than here)
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