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Better Now

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In "Better now" readers are invited on an emotionally charged and psychologically demanding journey that explores the intricate web of soul ties, abusive relationships, and the female protagonist who does everything in her way to try and outrun the demons within her.

Celeste is a 17-year old girl grappling with a turbulent world, both within and outside her. Her life has been a tumultuous ride, marked by relentless battles with mental health issues, which threaten to shroud her in darkness. As she navigates her internal struggles, she becomes entangled in a web of relationships that will test her strength and resilience in ways she could never have imagined.

Celeste finds herself caught between two contrasting love interests. On one hand, there's the man she loves deeply, a passion that ignites her soul but threatens to consume her with its toxicity. The allure of their love is undeniable, but it comes at a steep cost. His actions and choices leave scars, both physical and emotional, that Celeste must learn to bear.

On the other hand, there's the one she can't have, a love that is stronger than anything she has ever felt or will ever feel, a love that remains unattainable, yet lingers in the recesses of her heart. This unfulfilled desire fuels her hope that their story is not yet over.

"You can't truly love someone unless you love yourself first," so the saying goes. As Celeste's journey unfolds, she must grapple with the profound question: what happens when you truly loved someone before you loved yourself? And what do you do now when that love is teetering on an unreachable edge between world-changing and a perpetual source of torment? 

This gripping novel delves deep into the complexities of human emotions, the impact of mental health, and the indomitable will to find love and healing even in the face of toxic relationships. "Better now" is a raw and emotionally charged narrative that will leave readers reflecting on the enduring strength of the human heart.All Rights Reserved

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