hopelight's desire

"Desire is a wish which can't be granted."

Hopelight had to learn this the hard way.
He realizes that;

To be a medicine cat
You can't just not fall in love, you push your feelings away and pray that they fade.
You don't magically master herbs, you have to take your time and set your mind to it.
If you love someone, they won't always love you.
Just because life has no appeal doesn't mean that your escape from it will last long.

Sneaking into starclan as an escape from the cold heat reality he has to face in his clan and finding out horrible things on his way.