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"for one, don't lie to me i know i may seem easy to manipulate but don't tell you feel some way about me if you really don't"

"but i do."

novalynn walker has suffered with anxiety and depression disorders since she was 10. 

in and out of mental hospitals since she was 13 she has struggled with keeping her disorders separated from her outside life.

her parents have never been supportive of her, they mostly work and argue so she has nobody besides her best friend alysia and her boyfriend hayden.

until one day when she breaks down in the bathroom after she and hayden break up not realizing the most popular girl in the small town was in the stall.

will fate bring them together?

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Stay by ChrisRayner6

WARNING: this story contains talk about depression and suicide. If you have triggers regarding those two, please read with caution. Also if any of you ever need to talk, you are always free to message me! You are never alone. --- Sixteen-year-old Skylynn was the type of girl who didn't fit in with many people. She wasn't quite popular, but she wasn't considered an outcast. She had two main friends: Cassandra and Marcus. So, when her best friend, Cassandra, asked her to come to the park with her to meet some boys, she didn't think anything of it to find love. She just went with it and had a fun time with her friend Cassandra. But when Cassandra's boyfriend comes with a boy named Adam, Skylynn's world is turned around. She instantly feels the butterflies and the steamy romance with this boy, but she doesn't let it show. She doesn't want love right now. All she wants to worry about is school and her friends and family. But after that night that they all hung out together, Skylynn and Adam got closer and closer as time flew by. One date suddenly turned into three dates. Then, they both fell in love with one another. And then one day Adam commits suicide. She doesn't know why he did so, nor why he would. Even though she was heart-broken and torn to pieces, she puts up this facade and acts strong. She acts like none of it bothers her and she goes on with her life. But even after she goes from good girl to bad, she misses Adam like crazy. How long will Skylynn be able to hold this bad girl image of herself before she finally breaks down? This heart-wrenching story will teach you what it feels like to lose someone that you thought you would spend forever with.

In the Shadows of Love// Billie eilish Fan Fiction//wlw by Billiescomet76

Billie Eilish is at the height of her career, but behind the fame and success, she's battling her darkest demons-haunted by the trauma of an abusive ex, self-doubt, and the constant weight of expectations. When she crosses paths with Ava, a shy 19-year-old struggling with social anxiety and her own emotional scars, the two women find comfort in each other's brokenness. As they navigate love, mental health, and the fallout from a dangerous past, their bond is tested in ways neither of them could have imagined. But love isn't always enough to outrun the shadows. Will they find a way to heal together, or will the darkness pull them apart? Trigger Warnings: Abuse (Physical, Emotional, Sexual): Includes mentions of past and current abusive relationships, physical violence, and sexual assault. Self-Harm: Depictions of self-injury and the emotional struggles surrounding it. Depression & Mental Health Issues: Ongoing battles with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and panic attacks. Kidnapping: Scenes involving kidnapping and threats of violence. Sexual Content: Includes consensual sexual scenes with emotional implications, particularly for characters recovering from trauma. Violence: Includes physical altercations and graphic descriptions of assault. Suicidal Thoughts: Mentions of suicidal ideation. Substance Use: Possible references to alcohol or drug use.

Unhealthy Obsession |18+| by CodiBlue

-Let's get this straight. From a dead end job to a useless crazy ex boyfriend- my happiness is with my best friend yet the fear of our relationship ending completely scares me and id rather fake it and be in fear than find out and never be happy. It sucks, seeing him everyday and knowing what i feel for him and how deep those feelings go is painful...- But when he comes around everything changes for the best and for the worst. As a whole they are deeply loved and equally as hated by others but the love from one another is undeniable, if only she wasnt so selfish with her choices and words- -Lying, cheating, sneaking, crying- many acts and emotions come from within when there's someone you love unaware of that love.. Possibly growing to love someone else right before your eyes..Its gut wrenching, i know because ive fucked up. Its worse when you're aware of the harm you cause yourself and others but dont care how the outcome turns out to be. Why would it matter how it effects you if youre used to pain and people leaving? it wouldnt. All because you take comfort in your own mind and mental illness, once you realize you have freewill it may become a bad thing if youre careless.- - Gabriella White.

Hold Tight by aribaes

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jellybean • billie eilish by c0kelover

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bad company || B.E by lexieilish

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help me live. by tomakeyoumyartt

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