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"for one, don't lie to me i know i may seem easy to manipulate but don't tell you feel some way about me if you really don't"

"but i do."

novalynn walker has suffered with anxiety and depression disorders since she was 10. 

in and out of mental hospitals since she was 13 she has struggled with keeping her disorders separated from her outside life.

her parents have never been supportive of her, they mostly work and argue so she has nobody besides her best friend alysia and her boyfriend hayden.

until one day when she breaks down in the bathroom after she and hayden break up not realizing the most popular girl in the small town was in the stall.

will fate bring them together?

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Broken Promise////Billie Eilish by chocolatey_love

"But you said! you told me you love me!" I yelled at her tears streaming down my face. She looks at me and shrugs smiling, "I didn't mean it. I was just playing around. Wanted to know what it was like. And you know I love him." "You wrote it! 'If I love you was a promise would you break it if your honest' it was a promise! you can't break a promise!" I sob out clenching the end of my shirt tightly. "How old are you? Fucking 10? Promises are made to be broken. At least I'm being true to staying honest. Wake up y/n, this is reality. I'm not even gay! I was just curious." She says rolling her eyes. "So you chose me to play with? To hurt? You think my feelings aren't valid just because I'm a lesbian? So you play with my feelings! You're just a selfish bitch! I fucking hate you Billie!" I yell unable to control my emotions anymore. "Okay? Well if that was it, I'm leaving. Brandon's waiting for me in the car." She says with a laugh. I look up to met her ocean eyes filled with amusement and accomplishment. I look at her with disgust and walk away. Away from her, hopefully forever.

Falling Apart by 1_Will_3

*TRIGGER WARNING: DEALS WITH DEPRESSION, SELF HARM AND SUICIDE* Amber is sixteen years old and to sugarcoat it... She hasn't had the best upbringing. She would love a different life, one where she can see her mother again and not be stuck with her abusive father. A life where she doesn't get taunted and hit and torn apart by everyone who she has ever seen. But she would never swap, she doesn't want anyone to endure the pain she's gone through. So instead, she tries to get rid of it... Again. But much to her disbelief, she is saved by the people she would least expect. She learns secrets about them that no one else knows. She feels included. Cared for. And dare I say it... She felt loved. For once in her life, she felt truly happy to be alive. But just when Amber felt safe, her life was flipped upside down and her past came back to haunt her just when she least expected it... (Sorry, I suck at descriptions, don't let it put you off) Ranking: #64 in Awareness #15 in Mental Health Awareness #73 in saddness

i feel safe. by kyaeilish

"i feel safe with you billie." i say. lowercase intended. billie is not famous (yet), billie has her blue hair in this but it's not based off of her when she had it. trigger warnings: talk of self harm, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, drug abuse/overdose, alcoholism, abuse, eating disorder, rape/sexual assault, and possibly more. read with caution. started 2/15/24 welcome to my first ever story! please please read the trigger warnings and take them into account. if you are not in the right state of mind dont read! constructive criticism is always appreciated. -kya. this story is based around me and my past. ps: i write on an iphone, i don't know how this is gonna turn out, i have no previous experience on writing books, but i thought i'd give it a shot.

jellybean • billie eilish by c0kelover

she's going to die. my arms instantly clung onto her for dear life, something doesn't feel right about this, i don't feel safe without her. "i love you my little jellybean." she whispered in my ear. achieved: #1 eilish #1 patrickoconnell #1 billiefan #1 maggiebaird #1 maggie #1 chronicillness

Everything Changes by Upallnight19

Aria had a simple life, she had her friends, her brother, and her parents. At the time she thought life couldn't get any better; minus the guy she was in love with was having a hard time noticing she's the one. But when tragedy strikes, she doesn't know how to deal with it. Losing someone close to her and the guilt that eats away at her heart. How do you deal with it? The life she had known was gone. The pain feels like drowning. Though putting your life together is hard when you keep finding out people aren't who they say they are. Who could possibly help her keep her head above water? Someone she least expected? Could he be the one to save her, before it all becomes too much? Ryder didn't leave much falsehood to rumors. A complete playboy. He didn't have much he cared about in life anymore, at least, other than his friends. They were the only ones who knew his dark secrets, the mystery that hid in his eyes. That's the way he liked it, usually keeping to himself, not giving a shit what anyone thought about him. When Aria walks in his life, things get shaken up. Now, life starts getting a little more interesting.

Hold Tight by aribaes

18 year old Amy Turner struggles with mental illness. Depression, anxiety, panic disorder, and struggles with suicide tendencies. Amy lives with her mother, who constantly travels for her business, and believes that all Amy's situations are fake and drawn to bring attention to herself. She also deals with a lot of bullying at school by a group of people; Amber Thomas, Jenny Looser, John Rogers, and several other girls and guys. Her best friend Bethany Peters watches her and stands by her through her tough times until Amy's dream boy, Brandon Walters, comes in and causes conflict to her mental illness. Brandon and Beth struggle to watch her attempt suicide, feel broken and begin to start rumors about each other causing to mess with Amy's mind. Will Amy and Beth continue on with their friendship? Will Brandon and Amy officially come out from hiding their relationship? Will Amber continue her rumors and start more drama to break Brandon, Beth and Amy apart? --- My name is Ariel Baes. I'm 18 years old with a passion for writing. Parts of this story are personal and related to my personal life, but in Amy's point of view, and more violent and serious. I myself struggle with mental illness, suicide tendencies, and struggled with self harm. I am proud of this writing I have been working on and am proud to share it. It may not be the best story ever written, spelling errors may be an issue. But this story tells a lot. And I hope you guys will enjoy it as much as I did writing it.

bad company || B.E by lexieilish

savannah (you) and billie have been friends for as long as you can remember. you don't know this, but she has also been in love with you for as long as she can remember. you have an ass of a boyfriend, named scott. you two have been together for a little bit over a year. but billie notices he's different. she hasn't liked him since you've started dating, but she starts noticing that he's not treating you good. you do too, but you ignore it. you're blinded by what you think is love. so will your manipulative toxic boyfriend get billie insanely angry? will she become even more protective of you? and if so... does that mean will billie take matters into her own hands? (billie does not start off famous in this book) #3 - bad company #6 - thrilling

In the Shadows of Love// Billie eilish Fan Fiction//wlw by Billiescomet76

Billie Eilish is at the height of her career, but behind the fame and success, she's battling her darkest demons-haunted by the trauma of an abusive ex, self-doubt, and the constant weight of expectations. When she crosses paths with Ava, a shy 19-year-old struggling with social anxiety and her own emotional scars, the two women find comfort in each other's brokenness. As they navigate love, mental health, and the fallout from a dangerous past, their bond is tested in ways neither of them could have imagined. But love isn't always enough to outrun the shadows. Will they find a way to heal together, or will the darkness pull them apart? Trigger Warnings: Abuse (Physical, Emotional, Sexual): Includes mentions of past and current abusive relationships, physical violence, and sexual assault. Self-Harm: Depictions of self-injury and the emotional struggles surrounding it. Depression & Mental Health Issues: Ongoing battles with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and panic attacks. Kidnapping: Scenes involving kidnapping and threats of violence. Sexual Content: Includes consensual sexual scenes with emotional implications, particularly for characters recovering from trauma. Violence: Includes physical altercations and graphic descriptions of assault. Suicidal Thoughts: Mentions of suicidal ideation. Substance Use: Possible references to alcohol or drug use. Rankings: #mentalhealth 32 Out of 68,6k

Hold on for Dear Love by harry_otra

Billie Eilish struggles with finding herself worth when recovering from an eating disorder and death of a loved one. She is just about to give up on the chance of falling in love again until she meets Karissa, in the worst circumstances. They grow together and end up raising a child of their own who starts to show the same troubling signs of mental illness that Billie once had. Follow along on their journey to find peace, happiness, and love even through the worst of times. -This story contains a lot of triggering content-

Bruised Black & Blue // Billie Eilish by s1ncerelyours

Rowan, a girl of a coy and passive nature, did not expect to be flung into someone else's life so abruptly- and graphically at that. It could have been anyone, but for a reason unknown to her, the universe chose her. The life she stepped into belonged to another girl, that to Rowan's dismay, was unaware of how prized of a possession she truly was. She did not value every breath she took or even the supple skin on her body. But her helpless soul was not to blame. Billie struggled with a list of issues doctors of all kinds were unable to diagnose. Everyday was a fight against her conscience and she feared, a day would come in which she would lose. In a way, the pair were star-crossed. Rowan knew the severity of Billie's situation and her undeniable inability to be helped, but still, she could never forgive herself if she had turned a blind eye and walked away after that single, dark and rainy night. She often questioned whether or not her actions were fueled by an honorable sense of selflessness or its much more complicated counterpart- selfishness.

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Broken Promise////Billie Eilish

"But you said! you told me you love me!" I yelled at her tears streaming down my face. She looks at me and shrugs smiling, "I didn't mean it. I was just playing around. Wanted to know what it was like. And you know I love him." "You wrote it! 'If I love you was a promise would you break it if your honest' it was a promise! you can't break a promise!" I sob out clenching the end of my shirt tightly. "How old are you? Fucking 10? Promises are made to be broken. At least I'm being true to staying honest. Wake up y/n, this is reality. I'm not even gay! I was just curious." She says rolling her eyes. "So you chose me to play with? To hurt? You think my feelings aren't valid just because I'm a lesbian? So you play with my feelings! You're just a selfish bitch! I fucking hate you Billie!" I yell unable to control my emotions anymore. "Okay? Well if that was it, I'm leaving. Brandon's waiting for me in the car." She says with a laugh. I look up to met her ocean eyes filled with amusement and accomplishment. I look at her with disgust and walk away. Away from her, hopefully forever.