This is a kind of diary, I wrote about my first and only crush. I had many attractions. Never dated anyone. But this guy is something else. Nobody felt like him. I lost interest from others within months, days.. I won't call it love because I don't know what is love. But I will definitely call it crush because I felt myself getting crushed. "...I don't want him to full fill my fantasy/desires but I need a shoulder to cry when I get sad...." ~H✨