You're The One Holding The Gun

it took a long time just to get here, to get ballister in the same room as him alone. regaining bal's trust took weeks of countless work. now he's comfortable enough to be in the same room as ambrosius along..

but still

ambrosius has no idea what's going through ballister's mind. the fear he feels. the fact that he hasn't slept in weeks because he's afraid something might happen. that ambrosius might...

he doesn't know why. he trusts ambrosius, he knows he does.. but something... doesn't feel right...

for now bal stays on alert, trying to balance his anxiety, depression, chronic pain and now having to deal with ambrosius' constant apologies. apologies he knows are real but at this point they feel more like an obligation then real remorse