It Was Nothing like You Promised

"what do i do without you?"

Felix said, wrapping his arms around his lovers waist, his chin resting peacefully on his shoulder.
"What do you mean what do you do without me?" his lover said, turning around in his hold, "you gotta..." he runs his calloused hands up felix arms "you gotta live." he said tucking a piece of bangs behind Felix's freckled ear, "you gotta live life to the fullest, you gotta be happy, alright?"
His big calloused hands come to hold Felix's face gently, "you gotta keep doing what you're doing." His thumb came up to gently trace over one of his eyebrows, Felix closes his eyes to prevent tears from escaping.
"Even without me, you gotta be healthy, you gotta live to the fullest." Felix's own hands came to wrap around his lover's wrist, "for me."
Felix shook his head, "that's what you gotta do."
Placing his forehead against Felix's is when a tear finally fell.

After losing his boyfriend of five years to cancer, Felix starts to have mental break downs as he slowly starts to forget the details of his lovers face day by day

[ a chanlix fanfiction. ]