One Step Forward and Three Steps Back

I wasn't what they call a "bad girl" but I wasn't great either..

I partied, drank, did a few drugs at parties, but never to the point where I was over my limit. I still liked to be in control of myself and my surroundings. I never let myself too close in intimacy or relationships, only close for the night and then never speak to them again. That was until i found myself at a party after a dramatic night of being talked down to by my parents, that caused me to get caught in a loop with him instantly. He was like an inhale of cocaine and I was hooked. He was a drug I knew wasn't good for me, but I just couldn't resist.. so I took that step forward, and was never able to turn back.