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Nothing but a Monster

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Parts 13
Time 4h 6m

Reads 25,829
Votes 831
Parts 13
Time 4h 6m

Mature

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Chuuya struggles to convince himself he's human and it becomes more increasingly difficult, especially with Arahabaki spilling poison in his mind.

Dazai defects from the Mafia and Chuuya remains behind to deal with the aftermath. 

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING!!⚠️
       Suicidal thoughts 
       Self-harm
       Suicide attempt


Best ranks: #2 Soukoku
                      #2 Angst
                       #1 ChuuyaAll Rights Reserved

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Inevitable Destruction by Sanna_is_alone

Dazai angst I felt like writing ACTUAL WRITING WILL BE POSTED BY APRIL 30TH !PLEASE MIND THE TW'S THIS IS INCREDIBLY HEAVY! Child endangerment Child abuse Hypothermia Starvation/Descriptions of intense hunger Suicidal thoughts/Ideation Implications of non consensual medical drug usage Self harm Blood Gun/Blades Thoughts/Urges to hurt others (?) Dehumanization Depression Self neglect Suicide/Attempt (VERY descriptive) Panic attack descriptions Slight religious imagery (?) Descriptions of gore/injury Brief mention of torture Law breaking/reckless driving (?) Emotional suppression (?) Drastic mood swings/changes Mentioned character death Playlist on first part and taking suggestions

𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝘾𝘼𝙏 𝙄𝙉 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙃𝘼𝙏, 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘶𝘺𝘢. 𝘯 by talesbyraven

⤷ 𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘧𝘪𝘢 𝘦𝘹𝘦𝘤𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘶𝘺𝘢 𝘯𝘢𝘬𝘢𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥. ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘶𝘺𝘢 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘯𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯. 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦. ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘶𝘺𝘢 𝘹 𝘧𝘦𝘮!𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ i do not proofread my chapters, there will be errors. most impressive ranks: nakaharachuuya: 🥉 chuuyaxreader: 🥈 pm: 🥇/🥈/🥉

Their untold secrets by nohealanii0

We write letters to ourselves as a way of comfort and closure. They both have many untold secrets... the feelings, they wish they could convey to each other, and the secrets they wish they could keep hidden. Will it come to the light or stay in the dark? A book about Dazai's day, life, and innermost thoughts. Asking himself the unsaid questions, the questions he doesn't know how to answer himself. The emotions he wishes to feel, but doubts he ever could. Chuuya? How did the brunettes departure affect him? How did he learn to cope? And who did he blame? {There will be journal entries in this book. Both dazai and Chuuya's feelings and perspectives out on paper} (this story contains angst, and the normal dazai stuff like talks about suicide, attempts, substance abuse, boyxboy, Soukoku, self harm. There will have several journal entries, but also have an actual story to go along with it.) /01-21-25/ #33 dazaiosamu

I'am happy that i have both of you [Soukoku] by Dazai_stole_wine

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Lyssophobia || Soukoku by DazaiMancer

Started: June 6, 2023 Finished: July 23, 2024 Lyssophobia: Fear of going insane or mad. Osamu Dazai was a young man with a crippling fear of going insane or mad known as lyssophobia. This fear kept him away from socializing, so he decided to lead a more solitary life. With the pressures of his family he accepted to get a therapy. So he had no other choice but to open up to a stranger. However, a young man named Chuuya listened his story intently, accepted and understood him in a way he never thought was possible. Suddenly, talking to Chuuya didn't seem as daunting as it used too. No matter how many times his friends told Chuuya to stay away from Dazai, Chuuya already started to fall in love with him. He wanted to reach out to Dazai and hold him, but he knew it was not his place. After all they had nothing but a doctor-patient relationship. So, Chuuya had to keep his feelings to himself and continue to be a professional. However, Dazai also sensed that something had changed in their relationship. He had also found himself falling in love with Chuuya, but his lyssophobia held him back from expressing his emotions.

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Hold On (I Still Need You) by sullyinthestars

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Parted Entanglement { ① } by heathereo

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