Metanoia
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Last published Mon, Nov 6, 2023
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TW: This is a developing book that I intend to introduce themes of ableism, suicide, death, depression, chronic/terminal illness, disability, abuse, bullying, trauma themes, etc. into. If you are sensitive to these types of topics in any way that you know may cause you mental harm, please do not read this book. Likewise, do not recommend this to anyone that you know may be triggered negatively by these themes. Otherwise, read at your own risk and please understand that this is a DEVELOPING piece of work that will be constantly edited, added to, revised, etc. thank you for taking your time to read the description to Metanoia, and please enjoy the ever-changing journey of Ivory and Kian!
19 years old and overly forgiving, Ivory navigates through her new life at Bransfort University, enduring the obstacles of disability and worsening illness, and dealing with her less-than-lovely past. Things seem to be going well, until her late-start roommate finally turns up and flips her world upside down all over again. What happens when his harsh comments become too much? And why does he have to be so damn sexy? Can people like that really change? Find out as you read this star-crossed tragedy.
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