Lost C.B

WARNING: THIS IS REALLY CRINGEY PLS DON'T READ IF YOU DONT WANNA CRINGE

"Do you still love me?" I asked my eyes tearing up "of course I do..." He said with a soft tone.
I started to cry into his chest. "SAY THE FUCKING TRUTH BROCK."
"I-" I cut him off.
"I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE You..."I cried punching the concrete ground I got weaker with every breath I took.
"heyy Alice its okay. Im here," he said with a soft tone.
"I just wanna fucking die. I've tried so many times whether its drowning. Taking all my meds at once. Being shot in the fucking leg, Cutting my wrist with a knife for Gods sake." I said looking up at the night sky. The stars shining brighter than I've seen in my 19 years of life. "Alice.. Don't talk like that, you have people like me sam. Your damn best friend!? Tara would hate to see you die."
"I don't care colby.. I just wanna die.. Leave the world. I don't care if it painful or if I go out quickly and painlessly. I don't care if its slow. I just wanna leave." I said staring at my Crimson colored knife I had cut myself with earlier.
"I wish I was dead." I blacked out after that.