Another Life

But how do i tell my mind and my heart to stop loving him who's the reason for its beating?

That when he told me that he wasn't ready enough to love again after his wife's death

Lots of thoughts slides in to my head

How come he wasn't ready enough?

How come he didn't tell me that he still longs for her love, her touch?

Did he plan all this?

Did he really made this plan to hurt me since the very beginning?

Was it all lies? All the sweet word that comes out from his mouth?

It became blurry, everything became blurry whenever i start questioning myself

Does his beleoved wife knows about me? About us?

To be honest i am scared. Scared enough to think that i might have hurt or cause trauma unto someone unintentional

Scared that i am still very much into her husband.

That i am very inlove with her husband as well as with her kid

I really do

And know that my family knows about his past, i want to hate her

I want to hate her because she left them broken and beyond repair

So dearest Elliana, i am here again on your tomb crying and asking for help

I know elli you both promised that you'll end up with each other in every universe, but is it okay? Is it okay for you to let him go in this universe so that i can have him?

Just this once please, elli?