Bit by Bit: Am I Losing Grip?
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Ongoing19m
Last published Mon, Jun 26, 2017
Basically my version of a poetic 'journal'.
It's a safe outlet that lets me avoid some of my more dangerous "old pals".
This is not a cry for help. This is not a sob story type shit. This is not just a ploy for sympathy. I actually have a slight sense of apathy towards a lot of the stuff that will be in here.
This is basically a collection of poems that describe my life and the scenarios I have been through and survived. I hope it helps someone feel some sense of hope.
I will put in the A/N if it is my own, original creation. If it's not, I will put the poet of the poem and why I chose it.
If you would like any elaboration on anything, comment, PM me, kik me @ mf_sotd_13, twitter @mad_mak_creator, or tumblr @shotthroughthebulletproofheart
Let me know what you think.
With love,
_mak..
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