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Ongoing, First published Nov 06, 2023
Have you ever thought about death? How you will die, what comes after when your heart stops beating? Personally, I've never given it much thought.
Until now.
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Fallon Vermont thinks there is no life worth living without Riley Evans, her boyfriend of six years. He is all she has, and she is all he has. From the beginning, Riley was possessive over her, and they were inseparable. Everything they did was for each other, and no one would get in the way of them. But what happens when Fallon meets Nicole, a girl who slowly becomes a friend, makes her question everything she thought she knew or believed, and starts to look at life in a new way? Riley is her everything and only thinks she needs him, and vice versa. 
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"Everything is made the way he intended it to. It's so freakin' awesome to think about. All you have to do is have that faith and surrender your life to Him." 
I smile and nod, looking away and sipping my coffee. I take what she said into consideration. At least about having faith. I always believed in something higher, but what exactly? Does god really love me, even after all the bad I've done? And Riley, does he still love him after he put his hands on me? If god can't accept Riley, why would I accept him? I won't believe in you if you don't believe in someone that I love, I just won't.
Will Fallon finally give in to the fulfillment God has to offer or will she continue to let the destruction that is her life, fully pull her under? She is fighting between right and wrong, good and bad. Will Riley continue to push her down the wrong path or help her, them, to step into the light?
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