is your God real anymore?
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I'm writing this because I have reason to believe that I may have religious trauma. I am writing this through the eyes of a teen who is seeing things and learning things she did not know about her trauma. I'm going to try and portray it in a realistic way. But in a way that is relatively easily understood. please don't read if you are sensitive to this stuff.
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