"you really need to stop felix" his voice is laced with worry and concern, the opposite of mine as I tell him to shut up and snatch my hand away. "im pushing everyone away, and i dont even know why even with black holes under my eyes, sunken cheeks, and a frail body, I dont know why I keep rejecting their help. and its only a matter of time before my body goes dumb, and my will to live vanishes." // what happens when the so called sunshine of stray kids, felix, loses his spark? (in editing)