"I was always told God doesn't give you more than you can handle. But no one ever tells you what happens when you feel like you're drowning anyway." Mia sat on her bedroom floor, hands shaking, knees pressed against her chest. Her Bible lay open in front of her, the pages worn, corners bent, and highlighter stains bleeding through. Her phone buzzed beside her - another notification from a BL fanfiction forum. She shut her eyes tightly. "God... why does everything I love feel like it's wrong? Why does following You have to hurt this much?" Tears rolled down her cheeks. Her dad was finally clean after 30 years. But clean didn't fix narcissism. Her mom was recovering too - but it took five years of silence. Five years of empty Christmases, birthdays without calls, and numb prayers whispered into a void. Yet... here she was. Still breathing. Still standing. "Why me, God? Why am I still here?"
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