Elan's Pain (boyXboy ||lgbtq) - T. Gray - Wattpad

Elan's Pain (boyXboy ||lgbtq)

Reads 130,154
Votes 6,262
Parts 19
Time 2h 53m

Reads 130,154
Votes 6,262
Parts 19
Time 2h 53m

Mature

abuse acceptance boyxboy gaylove hot humor icehockey lgbtq love music romance songs teenagelove teendrama teenfiction youngadult

Prologue 

How does one find the strength to stand with a defiance rivaled only by his courage? 

How does one still possess purity when his innocence was stolen? 

Could one forgive the monsters? 

How does one learn to love for the first time? 

How does one learn to love himself? 

You may not understand, agree or accept the ways one chooses to deal with and surpass the darkness threatening to consume them. 
But bear witness to the few that rises from the ashes like a phoenix reborn.
*****************************************************************************

This book has boyXboy scenes and contains instances where the main character self harms and is abused verbally and physically. If this isn't your kind of pie please don't take a slice. 

SLOWLY EDITING
************All Rights Reserved

abuse acceptance boyxboy gaylove hot humor icehockey lgbtq love music romance songs teenagelove teendrama teenfiction youngadult

Table of contents

19 parts

Sign up to add Elan's Pain (boyXboy ||lgbtq) to your library and receive updates

or

Content Guidelines

You may also like

The chronical of Daniel Lumiére by GamingTiger15

New school. New home. New Life. New bullies. Daniel didn't ask for any of it. Yet here he is. Life still sucks. And he's had just about enough of it. However, the biggest challenge is yet to come. Afterall, has his shadow been moving on its own? Or is it just his imagination. Follow the story of 14-year-old Daniel as he learns how to get through life. How to grow up. And how to love in multiple ways. Opening his heart and mind to the world and people around him. Rated mature for: Swearing Mature concepts Violence This book is dedicated to everyone who inspired me, encouraged me and stuck by me while I debated giving up on the concept for this book altogether. You all know who you are... I wanted to tell a story that breaks the norm to some aspect. Where the main character is a boy, not a girl. Where he is not perfect. And where he is even a - not bad - but does bad things sometimes. It's a story of coming into yourself and forging your own path. Despite how hard that path can be to walk. Choices you face, how you'll react to them. What to do when you've done something bad and how you can fix it. If you should fix it. Each choice you make - weather you realize it or not - forges the person you are. For every door you close another one is waiting to be opened. This is not a perfect story, but it's one I want to tell. One that comes from a personal place in my heart and one that is born in reality and bathed in fantasy. This story will deal with aspects of both worlds. And sometimes touch on heavier topics. Be prepared, to read about a character who is the farthest thing from perfect. But he doesn't need to be. He just needs to be himself. Oh, how hard that truly is.

Want Me (BoyxBoy) by Heather_gO

When two lovers' best friends meet for the first time... lots of feelings can rise. Attraction, confusion, lust... love? Will they be able to overcome the obstacles that come with being in a homosexual relationship? Will their best friends accept their secret relationship? What about their families? Will love be enough if that's all there is? Find out what happens when a bisexual guy falls for a straight one... from the straight's point of view! ~ Mature Content ~ This can be read as a standalone, but I do suggest reading my other series first! But it is a heterosexual romance, so if you're only interested in reading boyxboy, then just read this one! Like I said above, this story is about a HOMOSEXUAL couple! So if you're not cool with that, don't read it! Go enjoy my other books!! #3 in #lgbt #2 in #spicy #1 in #gaylovers #1 in #pride #2 in #bisexual #1 in #straightguy #3 in #gaypride #1 in #comingout #2 in #homosexual #2 in #homosexuality

Until We See Light by MCcollab

My father once said to me, "This universe we live in is tricky. It never gives us exactly what we want but always shows us who we need." Granted, he was coming out of anesthesia after leg surgery and was pretty loopy and doesn't remember saying this at all. I live every day hoping that it's true but I'm always at war in my own head thinking that it probably isn't. Main Characters- Luukas is 17 and he's doing pretty well considering he recently survived a second suicide attempt. Out of the hospital and on his way home but he's already worrying that there will be a third time. His favorite book is They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera. Even though he has a permanently gloomy outlook on life he wants to find love. Current songs on repeat are Young Love by Eli Lieb, Sad Song by We The Kings, and Ashes by Celine Dion. Emitherios (aka Bailey) is 19 and wants nothing to do with his biological family or his adoptive family. He's on his own now but starting when he was 14 hey had kept him at a military academy, then a wilderness program, then a boys ranch for over four years. He's been on his own for over a year and he's looking for someone he can trust. He looks like he's got it all figured out, but he definitely does not. Theme- Luukas and Emitherios (Em for short) are teenage boys that find each other and then work to come together. Mental illness (Luukas) and a history of abuse and neglect (Em) do not make trusting or staying together easy for them. True love doesn't happen right away; it's an ever-growing process. It develops after you've gone through many ups and downs, when you've suffered together, cried together, laughed together. - Ricardo Montalban. - NOTE -- Copyrighted work here, all rights reserved.

Plan Of Seduction by bl_principito

"I hate you - so much Tripp." More confusion because, once more, wasn't this a good thing? "Why did you have to say that? What if," A little quieter, just above a whisper. "What if we mess up our friendship?" "But what if we don't?" "You don't know that," I bumped his nose with my finger. "And neither do you. So, why don't we give it a shot?" He bit down on his bottom lip, hesitation and worry filling his gaze. __ This is literally a story that follows the plot of two best friends realizing their feelings for each other, yes, I know, very cliche, but I enjoyed writing it. There will be mature LGBT+ content, so if you don't want to read those chapters or this story, skip it. Highest Rankings (that I'm aware of): LGBT+: #3 , College Romance: #2 , Gay: #19 / GayPride: #2, Gay boyxboy #1

I Always Come Back for You by Goleshab

I fell in love with a man I have never met. He doesn't even know that I exist. How is that possible to inherit an obsession with a man I can never have?... Dara, an introverted young man witnesses a red star and makes a wish. This mysterious wish links his destiny to a struggling male idol who has fallen for his straight Sunbae at work. Can this strong connection bring their worlds together? What happens when our introverted boy follows the same route and falls for the same guy? Can Dara make this impossible unrequited love happen? This story is about, unconditional love, redemption, reincarnation, and a clueless foreigner in the world of drama and music in a new country. Trigger warning: Suicide, Bullying, mention of past harassment and depression **This is a slow-burn romance in two volumes.**

Falling for a Stranger (DannyPhantom.exe Fanfiction: Book 1) by light_and_dark26

A closeted young man from a Caribbean country moves to America and ends up in the same college as his online crush yet unable to come to terms with how he feels for this person, actually meeting this person and the mental scars he has from being gay in the homophobic culture he was raised in. Can he overcome and accept himself for who he is and even if he does...will he find happiness falling for a stranger? (Chapters are updated periodically to fix grammar and punctuation errors as well to add to or take away from the storyline so that the story flows better. So be sure to check back previous chapters and if you see an error that I haven't, please let me know in a comment. Constructive critiques are always welcome. Thank you for reading!)

How to Lose your Best Friend by logiedacat

A cliche plot that got disturbed when the supporting characters became far more important to the plot than the main ones. I've never had anyone tell me that I could do anything more in life than exist. The sound of someone believing in you shouldn't be something new to your ears. It should be something you hear on a regular basis that keeps you going throughout the day. It's hard to believe that I could ever accomplish anything after failure seemed to be imprinted on my forehead.-PJ Eagle sees me as someone who's there for her when she needs advice about a boy. She doesn't see me as the boy she needs advice about. I've watched her go through everything. Her first boyfriend, her first breakup, her first kiss, her first high school party, and everything in between. I didn't mind watching her go through everything but I wanted to be something to her. I wanted to be more than her best friend. If I'm being honest I wanted to date her but I knew it'd never happen. -Blair WARNING: This book mentions triggering topics such as assault, abuse, depression, and other similar topics. If you are sensitive to the mention of these topics this story may not be for you.

$Once in a Lifetime {BxB English} by Misiz_Bossy$

Two straight guys. The first, twenty-one years old, committed and loyal to his girlfriend for two years. Sociable, kind, and good-hearted. The second, twenty-three years old. He has dated so many girls he can't even remember their names. He has no real friends. In fact, he's disliked by everyone, given his cold and aggressive demeanor. He's perceived exactly as he presents himself. A dark-haired guy with tattoos and attitude problems. "I know what I did was wrong. It was wrong to kiss you... You're free to hate me. You can choose not to see me again. But before you go, please eat..." their eyes locked, until he sighed and looked down. "And if that's what you want... I won't bother you again" his head lowered, when he felt the other's hand caressing his face. He shook his head negatively as he stroked his cheek with his thumb. "I don't want that..." ___________ ~ Warning : contains mature content (violence, strong language, sexual content intended for 18+ audiences only) ~

Hollow | BxBxBxB by ElijahDiva

Connor Johnson seems like an ordinary boy on the outside, but on the inside he's plagued by depression, an eating disorder and complex anxiety. So what happens when he finally hits the end of the line and is forcibly sent to a home for troubled boys? Where love runs rampant in the air and tensions soar as high as the clouds. TW's (these will not be included at the start of chapters so take this as a final warning) Anorexia & Eating Disorder Self Harm Drug Abuse Abuse Smut PTSD Hallucinations/Schizophrenia Suicidal Thoughts & Ideation Hospitals Anxiety Slow Burn This story is NOT promoting, encouraging, romanticising or glorifying topics such as abuse, suicide, self harm, disordered eating, sexual abuse/misconduct or anything like that, it is just showing what the affects of it can be like especially for LGBT+ young people. Please be respectful in the comments and if anyone is struggling do reach out for support!

One of Those Nights (boyxboy) by 5am6am7am

High school pretty much sucks for everyone, and this is no different for Reiss Irving. As his life starts crumbling around him in the most cliché ways he finds love (in a hopeless place). More love than he can handle. As a guy with no self esteem Reiss struggles with understanding why a bunch of guys are suddenly fighting over him. He finds himself enjoying the attention, but in the end he will have to choose just one. ____ Have I ever told him I'm gay? "Have I ever told you I'm gay?" I voice my thoughts. My friend's eyes widen and his jaw drops open. I honestly don't care that whatever other kids are in class already heard me. "No, you haven't. Thanks for telling me though I guess." he says breathily, his face completely incredulous. My grin widens and I nod at him. "You're welcome." ____ [BOOK 2] (can be read seperately)

You may also like

Slide 1 of 10

The chronical of Daniel Lumiére cover

Want Me (BoyxBoy) cover

Until We See Light cover

Plan Of Seduction cover

I Always Come Back for You cover

Falling for a Stranger (DannyPhantom.exe Fanfiction: Book 1) cover

How to Lose your Best Friend cover

Once in a Lifetime {BxB English} cover

Hollow | BxBxBxB cover

One of Those Nights (boyxboy) cover

The chronical of Daniel Lumiére

New school. New home. New Life. New bullies. Daniel didn't ask for any of it. Yet here he is. Life still sucks. And he's had just about enough of it. However, the biggest challenge is yet to come. Afterall, has his shadow been moving on its own? Or is it just his imagination. Follow the story of 14-year-old Daniel as he learns how to get through life. How to grow up. And how to love in multiple ways. Opening his heart and mind to the world and people around him. Rated mature for: Swearing Mature concepts Violence This book is dedicated to everyone who inspired me, encouraged me and stuck by me while I debated giving up on the concept for this book altogether. You all know who you are... I wanted to tell a story that breaks the norm to some aspect. Where the main character is a boy, not a girl. Where he is not perfect. And where he is even a - not bad - but does bad things sometimes. It's a story of coming into yourself and forging your own path. Despite how hard that path can be to walk. Choices you face, how you'll react to them. What to do when you've done something bad and how you can fix it. If you should fix it. Each choice you make - weather you realize it or not - forges the person you are. For every door you close another one is waiting to be opened. This is not a perfect story, but it's one I want to tell. One that comes from a personal place in my heart and one that is born in reality and bathed in fantasy. This story will deal with aspects of both worlds. And sometimes touch on heavier topics. Be prepared, to read about a character who is the farthest thing from perfect. But he doesn't need to be. He just needs to be himself. Oh, how hard that truly is.