Note I am not a writer i don't see myself as a pro or even a beginner. Writing is a way to purge the madness of intense emotions so I don't go insane from all these crazy emotion that keep choking my mind. i write mind theories. I write diverse different mental landscape from real memory to dissociate collection of thoughts since someday I cannot discerns thought from realities you unfortunately an observer to my thought and so am I. I like to be as accurate as I can be to the brutality of my own thoughts. Writer do not having a desire to seek change we write about what we observe about those change. That have to be one of the phenomenon in itself. That what we readers do it . If you would like to support my writing so I have more time to keep wondering in my mind landscape I am also design weird word art on Etsy seller name Failur is the same as my writing name . I do not want all that noisy appearance of names in the public. I am someone whose all the fames and publics would bring out the worst in me. And I really seek the treasure of peace as it is a refuge for my chaotic mind. Author note This is a story of a fictional character. Any resemblance to real people or person or event is coincident If you are offend or sensitive about the subject matter relating to self harm or strong emotions. Please do not read. I do not know any editor or have review reader before posting so it not polished work; it will undergoes many rewrite and reedit in the future.All Rights Reserved