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Not How I Wanted

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Time 1h 17m

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In which a series of live streams and speculation make an elaborate lie come to lIght

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Or Lake Indigo lies about not having a younger sibling out of respect for them and a few fans find out 



𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍



Vienna Indigo wanted to be a famous singer for as long as they can remember. The problem was, their older brother already achieved that by the time he was 25. They could always ask their brother to promote their music for his millions of fans but it wouldn't feel as earned. 

All they want is to be known for themself but when they have to move in with Lake and prying friends and fans alike are making it hard to play pretend, things start to fall apart. 


And on top of that, they may or may not unintentionally write a majority of their songs about their feelings for their best friend. Woops?All Rights Reserved

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Five's A Crowd by ur_anus_

"𝔼𝕍𝔼ℝ𝕐 𝔽𝔸𝕄𝕀𝕃𝕐 ℍ𝔸𝕊 𝕊𝔼ℂℝ𝔼𝕋𝕊" - - - "My name is Hazel, but most people call me Ze. I'm from Melbourne, and love Taylor Swift." I cringe at my own words, and think back to a time where Fletcher was one of the only people calling me Ze. "Does anyone have questions for Miss. Bolivi?" Fletcher asks, and I hate the way my father's last name sounds on his lips. Lots of students raise their hands, and I feel overwhelmed. People actually want to learn something about me? "Yes, Miss. Abbott. Ask away," Fletcher says to one of the girls who is seated at a table at the front of the class, with other kids who all look bitchy like her. "Are you related to the Bolivi brothers?" Her disgustingly sweet voice pukes out. "My last name is Bailey," I say coldly, hating how that was her only query about me. - - - Hazel Bailey. She's your typical Australian teenage girl. From going out with friends every Friday night, to crushing on university boys. But what happens when this seemingly normal girl experiences the loss of her mother? Fearing that she's going to go into foster care, Hazel begins to stress, but she quickly discovers that she's not going to go into the system. Instead, her five older brothers have gained custody of her. The same five older brothers she never knew existed. Something about them seems off, and Hazel can't help acting wary. But they're not the only ones with secrets. Join Hazel in a journey of lies, love, attachment, and humor.

Somebody Like You by LethalDreamer01

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Tubbo's Cousin~ Tommy x Reader by iamsomebodynobody

"Apparently she's been hurt by people, Tubbo is really protective of her." "Were you guys just friends? I don't know anymore... maybe?" ------ After an unfortunate accident with your parents, you're sent to live with your extended family. There you don't really know how to act and fit in, that was you became close with your cousin, Toby, and his friend Tommy. Well, he was a friend at first, maybe becoming more than friends.

MAD WOMAN | TAYLOR SWIFT by b1greputat1on

"She's mad, Taylor! Obviously you shouldn't keep feeding into her insanity!" "Yeah, I know. But it takes one to know one." -- Vienna Blanton doesn't hate Taylor Swift. She just has a grudge and a strong disliking of the singer. Although when she drunkenly tells a livestream this, the internet doesn't understand. Suddenly she's the new hot gossip, with her face painted onto the cover of every magazine. No matter how many times she refreshes her Instagram feed, she can't escape the drama. It wasn't meant to spiral out of control, and Vienna definitely didn't want to have Taylor Swift as a public enemy. Unfortunately for her, not everything goes according to plan. To release her stress, she finds comfort in an unknown number online that she accidentally dialed. Olivia, she goes by. A one time message turns into daily conversation, and soon they become friends. Or more. Vivi and Olivia. Both of them are lying to each other, trying to hide their real identity. What would happen when they find out they actually already know each other? -- This story contains serious topics that may be triggering to some readers. Please read at your own discretion, and put yourself and your mental health first. Also, this story is mature, and contains some scenes that aren't appropriate for younger readers. -- I do not own Taylor or any of her work. I only own my own characters, including Vienna, her friends, and other characters. Please ask before you use them! Do not translate this story. Do not steal this story. Please ask for permission before using anything from it. Love you lots! #1 in swiftie #1 in folklore

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Rock Bottom (BL) by devenwrites

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Our Secret To Keep. by ELShorthouse

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