You know my name, not my story

Last note Bethany left…..
You might know me, my name is Bethany. People know me as the nice, confident Girl, but in reality, i'm not. When I come home, I cry myself to sleep. I get called names by my so called friends. I get mean notes in my locker by anonymous people. Mean phone calls threatening me by unknown numbers. People try to jump me, Attack me for no reason. I have had many death threats before. People cyberbully me. I’ve been beat up because I don’t fight back. I don’t deserve any of it. I’ve told adults but it only makes it worse. I just want people to leave me alone. I’m really not that bad of a person. I’m not here to tell you I want pity. I just want you to know I get bullied. Its not a good feeling at all. From all the bullying i’ve had, i’m scared to go to school. I dont know why people dont like me. Im not mean. I'm probably one of the nicest people you will meet. I stay to myself half the time. I don't really know what I do to deserve all this. Its hard pretending that im okay when im not. Especially when it’s been going from sixth grade till 10th grade. I dont want to cry more, But its kinda hard not too. It hurts so much. I know no one likes to be bullied. I’ve known so many people that have died due to bullying. Im not gonna sit here and tell you I haven't tried because it’s true. Ive tried. Just because i've been bullied so much, I have come home and locked myself in my room and cried myself to sleep. Im not gonna let the bullies win. Im not going to be depressed for the rest of my life. If you don’t know what happened that led me to all this, keep reading and by the end, if you have ever bullied someone, you will know how it feels. That’s my only goal in life, to get the people that wanted me to die, to know how it feels to be put in that situation.