Journal thing for my scatterbrained thoughts

Idk I want to write, but I haven't done it in so long so I guess I'll try dipping my toes in. Warning for addiction, self harm, suicide, death, gore, violence, cringe, etc. I talk about dark topics in detail; this is your only warning. I can't stop anyone from reading this, but I'd prefer if only people who were 18 and up read this.

If you know me in real life (which hopefully you don't but who knows?), go away. If I wanted to open up to you about these things, I would do it on my own accord. I came here to overshare to internet strangers from my veil of anonymity, the anonymity is important to me.