// "I was never one for sentiment. You should know that by now, Deyama. Don't worry about me. Go and save them. I'm counting on you, asshole." //
Yuto Kageyama, the aggressive ginger runt of the Mafia, has a surprisingly soft spot for his underlings, and it shows. He's like a big brother to them. Even when they've left. That doesn't change what they had. But who's there to look after him when he's once again swept into the shadows? I have never once heard anyone asking about him, applauding his merits, when he has done so much for them, and it is such a painful and lonely existence.
But, being the person that he is, Yuto was more than willing to make sacrifice after sacrifice for people who didn't deserve it. But, that's what older siblings are for. They make the sacrifices no one else wants to. They do what has to be done and don't ask for extra credit. Watch as he makes one sacrifice too many for people who cared about him more than they realised. But by then it's too late. By then he's lost his very humanity.
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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