Premonition
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Last published Tue, Dec 19, 2023
My name is Saturn Walten. I'm a 15 (almost 16) year old transgender child with autism, borderline personality disorder, and a slew of other problems.
I have nightmares every night. And while each of them are different; they share one common theme: someone is shooting up my school.
Everyone I tell about this had the same reaction. "That's unrealistic." "That would never happen at your school." "Everything will be okay." I call bullshit.
On top of dealing with this constant paranoia, I have to put up with my neglectful parents and their unresolved childhood trauma, my friends and their mental health problems, and the general struggles of growing up as a trans boy in a republican state.
I never sleep anymore. My life is miserable. I'm beyond exhausted.
But life goes on.
cover art by my irl friend Jordan
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