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Am I Alive?

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Disclaimer this book is being edited and for now only First SIX Chapters has been edited I would like if you guys don't move on the next chapters as it isnt related to the previous chapters.I will inform which chapters has been edited.in the description of the story. Thanks 

A story of girl, who was kept away from the Brightside of the world. who asks herself if she is alive? She thinks if everyone is treated same as her, or she is really a bad luck in everyone's live. Is it her faith? Will her undesirable luck change? Does she deserve this? These are the questions she always had. She wanted to end her life but changes her mind. Who changed her whole life?


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The Ghost by Goddessamonghumans

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Devils and Demons cover

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