Infatuation (UNS)

Meerab Waqas Ahmed to Meerab Anwar Khan to Meerab Murtasim Khan. Her identity, her surname her placement would change every time. She didn't even know who she was anymore until someone helped her figure it out.

"Tum Meerab ho, himmat wali honslay wali, kisay na darne wali, meri Meerab."

She'd smile every time she would remember his heartfelt words. Maybe it was an atrraction maybe it was love or maybe it was the fact that he was there with her when no one else was-but she knew that she was falling for him.

His eyes, so warm yet powerful, his words so heartwarming and loving, his body so warm and inviting, his every move his every breath was an infatuation for Meerab which she couldn't put aside. She'd never felt so secure and safe with someone like she did with Murtasim. She knew she was falling in love, and she hated it and loved it at the same time. She hated that he had that control over her, but loved that HE was the one to have that control in the first place. Day and night thoughts of him flooded her mind, not being able to think of anything else. Closing her eyes, she would imagine how life would be like if she hadn't put that contract between them. Maybe it was her fault that she felt so vulnerable and not loved. How could she put a barrier between a person who wants to give her all the love in the world? She wanted to break that barrier that wall in her heart and give herself to him, but she didn't know how to, or when to do so. For some reason fighting with him would be so easy but just saying that she loved him was so hard it made her head hurt. She can't let herself suffer like this anymore, she needs Murtasim's love in her life no matter what it takes.