There She Lies

The woods the thick branches of life, unknown mysteries that lurk in the dark. But I love the dark and the mysteries that it holds....Everyone's life is not perfect and I was far from perfect almost dead. I held no sparkle of light instead a blank soul. A soul were I did not care anymore a soul of hurt. I admit, I did have some phases in my life were I would think of dangerous situations that I wish I did or I wish done to me. On the outside I am a perfect girl with a bright future. But they don't know what happens in my life. This bright girl that people love plans her death with no emotion and think of herself as just a waste of a human body. I lie awake in the night crying. Why did god make me like this why did he put me in this situation. Though it will never be answered. This got me thinking to weather god is with me or I am a part devil and I would always pick devil. I know I did a lot of stuff in my short life that I will regret but do I regret anything now no because I am half way dead. Ive built a wall over the yrs that almost always
breaks and you would never see it though cause I am one of those girls with a mask. Ive learn that other people have way more horrible lives and I don't know how they do it because I struggle with life now is. My name is Ainsley cail smith with a tag on the left toe...a