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Got A Bad Feeling That I Need To Feel

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I'm basically writing this instead of sleeping to cope with the guilt of sleeping with Panam in the tank despite turning her down previously and then losing all interest in her after meeting Kerry. A look into my V's past and present and how he tries to navigate through his trauma that got him where he is with Panam. Relationships: (Kerry/Male V specifically with sprinkling of Male V/Panam and an off hand hint at Kerry/Johnny) OC's and canon divergent backstory for Nomad V.

 V has some demons that need confronting and Panam is caught in the crossfire. Kerry has to come to terms with the fact that there are ghosts in his boyfriend's past that he would have never imagined all while dealing with the struggle that is partner mental illness care. And Johnny has a lot of feelings about his second life that he doesn't know how to feel. And each part of the full story is written from a different perspectives! Explicit sex in some parts.

There's mentions of dark topics: suicide and suicidal attempts, dubious consent, mentioned NonCon, homophobia, abuse, panic and anxiety attacks, torture and past shared trauma. There will be closure I promise.

Not Beta read, we die Like Johnny here folks. I'm also live updating the previous chapters as I reread them to make sure they flow better so rereads might be helpful if things seem confusing. Sorry! (Mostly canon compliant but with my own changes to the past, present and some OC's that I felt made more sense to My V's story)
 
It will be in two parts(planned for now) but might expand as story fleshes out. Enjoy :) comment and fav!All Rights Reserved

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Hot Summer Night by JeniRaeD

Sixteen years ago, my sisters and I moved from France to the United States to live the American dream. Not long after, I met Declan, a marine who was home for his mother's funeral. He was my everything, my world, and the love of my life. Four and a half years later, I became his fiancée. Then, when I thought everything was going well, my world ended when I awoke to him gone. No note, no nothing. He was just gone. I waited days, weeks, and months to hear from him and for his return. That never happened. Then, I met Chadwick, who took the pieces of my broken heart and put them back together. He promised me many things during our dating years, guaranteeing he'd give me the world. And he was. Then, after years of not wanting to give my entire heart to him, fearing he'd do what Declan had done, I pushed the fear of him leaving me aside and married him. The night we married, instead of giving me the world he promised, I was gifted a nightmare. For over six years, I lived in a lake of fire. If I wasn't locked in a dark, cold room for days on end, day and night, I was tormented, punished, abused, and tortured in the blackest darkness until I could no longer see, talk, or move. Maltreating me until he broke me. Finally, one of my prayers was answered when an ally close to Chadwick helped me escape the prison of hell. She flew me out of New York and brought me to her friend's home in Mobile, Alabama, where I got the shock of my life. He wasn't just her "friend." He was a ghost from my past, and now I'm in his care. Oh, and he has a child nearly as old as our breakup.

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Cherry Blossom Abyss by ToastyBunss4

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Hot Summer Night

Sixteen years ago, my sisters and I moved from France to the United States to live the American dream. Not long after, I met Declan, a marine who was home for his mother's funeral. He was my everything, my world, and the love of my life. Four and a half years later, I became his fiancée. Then, when I thought everything was going well, my world ended when I awoke to him gone. No note, no nothing. He was just gone. I waited days, weeks, and months to hear from him and for his return. That never happened. Then, I met Chadwick, who took the pieces of my broken heart and put them back together. He promised me many things during our dating years, guaranteeing he'd give me the world. And he was. Then, after years of not wanting to give my entire heart to him, fearing he'd do what Declan had done, I pushed the fear of him leaving me aside and married him. The night we married, instead of giving me the world he promised, I was gifted a nightmare. For over six years, I lived in a lake of fire. If I wasn't locked in a dark, cold room for days on end, day and night, I was tormented, punished, abused, and tortured in the blackest darkness until I could no longer see, talk, or move. Maltreating me until he broke me. Finally, one of my prayers was answered when an ally close to Chadwick helped me escape the prison of hell. She flew me out of New York and brought me to her friend's home in Mobile, Alabama, where I got the shock of my life. He wasn't just her "friend." He was a ghost from my past, and now I'm in his care. Oh, and he has a child nearly as old as our breakup.