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Got A Bad Feeling That I Need To Feel

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I'm basically writing this instead of sleeping to cope with the guilt of sleeping with Panam in the tank despite turning her down previously and then losing all interest in her after meeting Kerry. A look into my V's past and present and how he tries to navigate through his trauma that got him where he is with Panam. Relationships: (Kerry/Male V specifically with sprinkling of Male V/Panam and an off hand hint at Kerry/Johnny) OC's and canon divergent backstory for Nomad V.

 V has some demons that need confronting and Panam is caught in the crossfire. Kerry has to come to terms with the fact that there are ghosts in his boyfriend's past that he would have never imagined all while dealing with the struggle that is partner mental illness care. And Johnny has a lot of feelings about his second life that he doesn't know how to feel. And each part of the full story is written from a different perspectives! Explicit sex in some parts.

There's mentions of dark topics: suicide and suicidal attempts, dubious consent, mentioned NonCon, homophobia, abuse, panic and anxiety attacks, torture and past shared trauma. There will be closure I promise.

Not Beta read, we die Like Johnny here folks. I'm also live updating the previous chapters as I reread them to make sure they flow better so rereads might be helpful if things seem confusing. Sorry! (Mostly canon compliant but with my own changes to the past, present and some OC's that I felt made more sense to My V's story)
 
It will be in two parts(planned for now) but might expand as story fleshes out. Enjoy :) comment and fav!All Rights Reserved

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Alex and Henry are newly engaged and planning their wedding as Alex's first Congressional election is coming up. While Henry is done with being in the spotlight, he's always knew that to love Alex, he'll have to continue to be. But as the wedding approaches, it eats at him as he realizes Alex and him want different lives. Alex, meanwhile is too wrapped up in politics to see how much Henry is suffering, and in his attempt to balance being everything to everyone, turns to vice. Will this be the thing that tears them apart? How can they both be happy if one of them has to sacrifice the life they have always desired? Follows book cannon (but not the bonus chapter exactly) and takes place 6 years after the end of the book. Chapters will alternate being told from Henry and Alex's POVs. *Was on hold for a few months (May-August 2024) during my graduation and moving but new posts weekly starting Monday, Sep. 30!! There will likely be 25 total. TRIGGER WARNINGS: mental health issues, drug and alcohol use, disordered eating, profanity, and (light) sexual content Note: Please consider the politics in this story to be a very fictional representation, and they do NOT truly represent US politics. Cover art @autiacorart on Etsy. All characters belong to Casey McQuiston. All writing is my own. Please do not share any part of this work without referencing me. Also posted on Ao3 (by me).