"I wonder if there's someone just like me beyond those enemy lines, waiting to return home. I wonder if he has a mother and sister waiting for him, if he wants to dress in civilian clothes once again and live his life without the horrors of war."
Crathenia is at war against the Itramian Order, a militia that plans to create an independent state for the Itramians residing in Eastern Crathenia, known as Verethen to them.
After losing her only home, Elderfield Orphanage, to a Crathenian raid, thirteen-year-old Rina was forced to fend off assassins and survive on the streets. After being found by some Itramian smugglers, she was taken to a black market and started to work there as she grew up. However, her hatred for Crathenians never faded, for she still remembered all the things that they had put her through.
Several years later, in the Crathenian capital, eighteen-year-old Damian Harper was conscripted into the army, where he met several soldiers who had lost their loved ones to the Itramian Order, convincing them to fight. When he was discovered to be a fluent Itramian speaker, he was immediately sent by his general to spy on the Order. However, he ended up discovering that the war was, in fact, partly orchestrated by a forgotten political entity.
When the two cross paths, they discovered a fact that almost no one has ever acknowledged: that both Crathenians and Itramians are equally human.
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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