My love, I promised you that when the timing in my journey of growth was right, I would find the courage to fulfill my dream with writing a book. Remember when I explained in my kitchen how deep my passion for writing is? I explained it's a form of expression that I understand in a way that I feel confident communicating in. I can just curl up in my jammies in my fluffy warm bed with my drink and late night snack, and say what I'm really thinking. I told you how safe it makes me feel. You paused, and your eyes twinkled. We sat there in silence with prolonged eye contact for a while. I asked you why you were staring, and you still paused and then asked me if that's what I really wanted to do. I finally let you in my world completely in this very moment that I will never forget, and I said yes. You said "You need to do whatever it takes to make you happy and fuel the fire I just saw. You need to embrace who you are. You are so beautiful and you deserve so much more than this. Work for it. If you just let me in, I could help you, C. I'll do whatever it takes to see you in your true essence, raw without question and you just being the girl that I love so much. I will do whatever it takes. No matter what, I'll always be here for you. I hate seeing you suffer, C. One day, I'll have to leave because you keep pushing me out. Trust me. You gotta listen, C. I want you to achieve everything you set your little heart to. Listen to me, baby girl. You won't feel like this forever, I know your pain and I've been in your shoes. There's another side to this and you can have it whenever you decide to love yourself first without question. You're going to tell your story one day, and I can't wait to hear about it." Here's to a good start, Boston. Here's to Us
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