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WHAT REALLY PAIN IS ( On-going )

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Raylie Cylle Vazquez the girl who just want a peace life, but god give him an opposite life that she wanted. She also wanted to feel a joy, Yung saya na hindi nya makakalimutan sa tanang buhay niya, kasi in her entire life she never felt happy kahit once.


" Tao rin naman ako pero bakit Parang ang saya nila pag nasasaktan ako? "


" Do i really deserve to be happy? "


" What is my life if I'm not Raylie Cylle? " 


" is it okay for me to die now? because if it's okay then I wish to die now..... right Raylie? "


Ang daming tanong sa isip ni  Raylie Ni isa hindi nya masagot, Wala siyang masagot kasi hindi naman talaga niya alam ang tunay na sagot..... Pero isa lang ang nasa isip nya..

 " I don't deserve to live and be happy until my last breath "  - R.C.V




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