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Finding myself

LoveWithoutPassion

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Reads 15,363
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Parts 36
Time 3h 33m

LoveWithoutPassion

16yearsold abuse assassin badass badgirl broken brothers death gay guns hit knives lesbian lgbt lgbtq mafia mafiaprincess mascgirl murder panicattack romance sad scar story

Tana, the goddess of fire. Fits my past self perfectly. Now, not so much, I used to light my "victims", if you will, on fire, but now I like to watch the pain on their faces. The same pain they inflicted on little girls before. The same pain they didn't seem to care about when they ruined others' lives. 

It's been a month since my last assassination, and a lot has happened. Starting from chapter one to the last, twists and turns, keep attacking me when I'm just feeling even slightly comfortable. 

My new brothers, my new house, my new father who has been trying so hard to make up for the past 13 years he's lost. But can they change my perspective of life and help me find myself the way I haven't been able to for my past 16 years of life? 

I've always been Marianne Thibaut but will I be able to identify with the Marianne Bernard I was always supposed to be?

(the story does not break the fourth wall this is just the description) 

This is a lost mafia princess story.

7th in badgirl 1/6/2024
1 in 16-year-old 2/18/2024 🥇
7th in hit
9th in badass
3rd in knives 🥉All Rights Reserved

16yearsold abuse assassin badass badgirl broken brothers death gay guns hit knives lesbian lgbt lgbtq mafia mafiaprincess mascgirl murder panicattack romance sad scar story

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This Fire! by savantingly

"These moans of yours, Zemira, they tend to tamper with my head. They're making my mind a haywire, 𝓜𝓸𝔂 𝓿𝓪𝓶𝓹𝓲𝓻." He whispered into my ear, sending shivers down my spine. His dominance was giving me power to show my dominance. If he wants to tease the devil, then he shall receive a tease in return too. Out of nowhere, I loosen myself from his grip and slam him to the wall, again. I start planting slow kisses on his neck and he tilts his head a little giving me more access. I lean towards his ear and place a kiss on it before whispering. "Today, we have ignited a fire, which will only wither by our deaths, Canzone. It will give us scars and burn us on the way but it will also become a toy which will give us happiness when we'll play with it, 𝓢𝓮𝓻𝓹𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓸. And remember, Orpheus, I've always liked to play with fire." I whispered before slamming my lips onto his. ________________________________________ 𝙕𝙚𝙢𝙞𝙧𝙖 𝙑𝙖𝙨𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙩𝙘𝙝 a.k.a the predator. She is the CEO of Vanina Trades. The Russian mafia leader in disguise started a fire of emotions with 𝘾𝙖𝙣𝙯𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙊𝙧𝙥𝙝𝙚𝙪𝙨 a.k.a the defiler. The heaven knows him as the CEO of Ceriah trades but in the underworld he is the Italian mafia leader. Both had their secret hidden to everyone except their loved ones but if this secret was to expose, then death was also to be exposed. Their worlds were the vessels of sin. What happens when they decide to add another such sin which no one realised would change them? ❤️ ⚠️CONTAINS EVERYTHING!⚠️

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