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Finding myself

LoveWithoutPassion

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Reads 14,997
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Parts 36
Time 3h 33m

LoveWithoutPassion

16yearsold abuse assassin badass badgirl broken brothers death gay guns hit knives lesbian lgbt lgbtq mafia mafiaprincess mascgirl murder panicattack romance sad scar story

Tana, the goddess of fire. Fits my past self perfectly. Now, not so much, I used to light my "victims", if you will, on fire, but now I like to watch the pain on their faces. The same pain they inflicted on little girls before. The same pain they didn't seem to care about when they ruined others' lives. 

It's been a month since my last assassination, and a lot has happened. Starting from chapter one to the last, twists and turns, keep attacking me when I'm just feeling even slightly comfortable. 

My new brothers, my new house, my new father who has been trying so hard to make up for the past 13 years he's lost. But can they change my perspective of life and help me find myself the way I haven't been able to for my past 16 years of life? 

I've always been Marianne Thibaut but will I be able to identify with the Marianne Bernard I was always supposed to be?

(the story does not break the fourth wall this is just the description) 

This is a lost mafia princess story.

7th in badgirl 1/6/2024
1 in 16-year-old 2/18/2024 🥇
7th in hit
9th in badass
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16yearsold abuse assassin badass badgirl broken brothers death gay guns hit knives lesbian lgbt lgbtq mafia mafiaprincess mascgirl murder panicattack romance sad scar story

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Savage Mafia Couple by maghee23

"You can't avoid me forever Lara" I chuckled "I'm ignoring you, you idiot" "Is it?" he slowly came towards me and pressed my body with his. Now I'm crushing between wall and him. My God please save me from this psycho. We locked our eyes, I saw his grey one. His eyes are filled with lust. I can sense I'm turning on but I'll never allow that. While I'm thinking about how to punch him, he suddenly slip his hand under my night wear rubbing my right thigh up and down. I'm in dead shock that my body can't move an inch from where I was standing, scratch that I was being crushing by this monster. He slowly leaned towards my ear, rubbing his lips below my ear and whisper "looks like you're enjoying my touch." I give him a big smirk making him confused, it's reasonable because he don't know my next move.. ≈≈≈≈≈≈≈≈≈≈ Zanvil Makarov 25, Russian, cold and merciless Mafia king, play boy. Lara Charlotte 21, daughter of Italian mafia Don, infamous assassin who everyone is afraid of. Top one mafia king and top one assassin who is trying to revenge her friend death. Will her identity get reveal? Will these two savage people become 'Savage Couple'? 𝓛𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓰𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓼𝓶𝓾𝓽 🔞 I'm not embarrassed to say that my first story is a cliche one.

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Mio Re (#3) by reetilicious

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The Sirens Game by XxYouShouldBeHerexX

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The Black Rose by JenniferBrian8

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Savage Mafia Couple

"You can't avoid me forever Lara" I chuckled "I'm ignoring you, you idiot" "Is it?" he slowly came towards me and pressed my body with his. Now I'm crushing between wall and him. My God please save me from this psycho. We locked our eyes, I saw his grey one. His eyes are filled with lust. I can sense I'm turning on but I'll never allow that. While I'm thinking about how to punch him, he suddenly slip his hand under my night wear rubbing my right thigh up and down. I'm in dead shock that my body can't move an inch from where I was standing, scratch that I was being crushing by this monster. He slowly leaned towards my ear, rubbing his lips below my ear and whisper "looks like you're enjoying my touch." I give him a big smirk making him confused, it's reasonable because he don't know my next move.. ≈≈≈≈≈≈≈≈≈≈ Zanvil Makarov 25, Russian, cold and merciless Mafia king, play boy. Lara Charlotte 21, daughter of Italian mafia Don, infamous assassin who everyone is afraid of. Top one mafia king and top one assassin who is trying to revenge her friend death. Will her identity get reveal? Will these two savage people become 'Savage Couple'? 𝓛𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓰𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓼𝓶𝓾𝓽 🔞 I'm not embarrassed to say that my first story is a cliche one.