My life

my life has been hard since 2012 when my mum died I've lost 3 other close family mem since then I try to cope and be strong but it is hard still I don't talk about how I feek anymore since I have gone back into my hell again which I know isn't good but I want to try and cooe with everything on my own again but one of my foster carers have told me to write down what the voice are saying and how they make me feel so she can give it to my psychiatrist when she sees her again which is soon then I can get help to try and stop the voices but I struggle to cope with them as it is. I'm not ready to talk about the voice just yet and I know it will make me even worse by not talking about the voice but if I carry on hinding my feelings away I will get even worse than what I already am.