lovebomb ☆ johnnie guilbert x reader
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content warnings: eating disorders, self harm, mental health issues/bpd, potential substance abuse
- y/n is a british streamer and small music artist with bpd who moved to LA at 15 after the tragic, unexpected death of her mother. y/n loves alternative and emo culture as she feels like she is understood in the community. recently discharged from hospital, she feels there's no hope, until..
- johnnie guilbert is a content creator who also makes music occasionally. He's suffered with his mental health for years after the unfortunate loss of his father and has been on a semi-documented recovery journey. his dark humour and edgy style make his fan base and friends love to be around him. he had no intention of falling in love until his best friend jake webber introduces him to a special girl.
[ mainly wrote this to feed into my delusions ]
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