Between love and obsession

In the past I was always jealous of that girl.. the girl that everyone even my fiancee he loves her! and I the so called villainess was killed in the end.. for false accusations of trying to kill her!

so now, in this life I won't interact with any of the harem or the female lead I plan to live a long peaceful life! but why?

everything is going down hill! "why are you leaving again... do you hate me that much? " "I thought we were friends why do you always find excuses to escape! " "please don't leave me.. I promise I won't follow you anymore love"

why the hell are they like that? so weird... though maybe it's a good sign? thought there behavior is weird... they weren't like this with the female lead.. how..

"ahhh!!! " I screamed in agony as my lower legs were cut off I look at them terrified... "you tried to escape us.. no.. you manage to escape us for five years! just because you thought we would love that woman? no.. no.. you must be punish love.. "

I tried my best to live a peaceful life as a Lapis Lazuli, to live peacefully not getting involved with the female lead and her harem.. yet why are they like this? they hate me so much that they wouldn't have two decisions if they want to kill me or not! they say it's love but I think it's obsession!