you see i never had the opportunities other females had cuz i ain't like any other female i was raised by my father and his brothers well not brothers but homies you know what i mean? i didnt have that girly life that mother figure i had a grandmother at some point but she stopped coming around after a while i learned it all from my pops he'll forever be what i need in my life .. but deep down i wont lie i needed my mother i wanted a female around i wonder ya know if life wouldve been different for me.. i wonder about her a lot if im like her .. if she wouldve liked me? it is what it is i guess