My so called life

My life was great until I moved. Until I lost my mom till my dad and his new fiancé got together until everything. Until he moved to my school! We supposedly fell in love! Then why did everything have to end that way? Why ? We were perfect together right ?? I've cut, tried to commit suicide! But in the end he's always there to stop me ! If he cares so much why did we brake up ? I thought he loved me ? Was our relationship based on a lie ? When he told me he loved me was it a lie ? When he kissed me, was it a true kiss ? Did he ever cheat ? Was he seeing other girls when I couldn't hang out ? Was he always lying? He makes me cry but yet happy to see him ! He's always on my mind! He won't go away ! In my conversations it always involves him ! I guess we are just unfinished business ! He told me he still cares ! He don't want me to harm myself ! He don't want me to go ! Is this what love is ? If so with him it will be good ! I don't want anyone but him ! He means everything to me!