Shanghai - keep your enemies closest

"What have I done to you? To us?" I whisper to myself as I stare at the broken man in front of me.
In this moment, I have a duty to my country. My whole life has led me to this service. I must not disappoint Cai. This is my purpose, I remind myself.
In this moment, with just a bulletproof mirror separating me from the shadow of the man in front of me, I could feel this memorized purpose leave my body. As if it had never been real in the first place. In this moment, I am simultaneously running from my past and also chasing a ghost. In this moment, my uniform and badges are no longer for my country. They are for him. In this moment, everything that I am is for him.