When silence is too loud
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Last published Sun, Jun 1, 2025
Have you ever had the biggest breakdown at the middle of the night and just minutes later you start dancing out of nowher?
The speed of thoughts in your head were faster then the light?
You wanted to say something but no one were for you to listen?
If yes then you might like this book of my poems.
I write what i feel and what comes from my soul.
"When everything is falling apart I want to be yoyur safe place"~"The silent cry" Queen_Cobra
I will try to update daily if someone will be intrested in it :)
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